Missing them, my family, is what I am feeling tonight.
It’s new in a way. to miss someone being here for just that, is what I am thinking it is.
I have missed my children as they have left the nest, missed caring for them and their being a part of my life.
But this is different. I don’t know that I have felt this before.
I have missed friends and counselors because of needs I felt I had.
I don’t know what to do with this feeling.
I feel a bit loss in how to process it.
Maybe I am finding loneliness, alone was always what I sought, it was safe.
Now I am finding I wish they were back when they just left.
It was nice to be with people, family, who saw me and my needs, even wants the same as I saw theirs.
Who accept me, as me
To be together sharing, sitting quiet, eating and laughing.
Existing in peace and connected.
I miss my aunt and cousin who spent the week with me.
I am finding a deeper longing to have people visit me.
I am thinking this has been building for awhile as I have been creating friendships more.
The kind where the flow goes both ways
I am more aware of how I enjoy someones presence
I notice the silence
Wish for the visits
Feel disappointed when they don’t happen
I am missing them
But also realize it’s ok
I can cry just a bit about it
Cause that’s what disappointment is
But then I can do something about it too
Be better about staying in touch
Cherish and pull out the together times past memories
I like missing them too on one level
It is nice to have whole memories of times with family
Ones I want
Ones I can keep
Ones that are smiling kind
I like this
So in the end
The missing them is worth it
I would rather miss them
Then not have been with them
Thank you to all my Missing Thems
You know who you are ❤