I like my home, the way I feel safe and secure here. Even living alone, I am not afraid of nights descending as darkness settles in. I used to be, for a very long time.
I would cower inside, doors locked, all lights on. Cellar and attic doors included. Fearful of inside as much as I was outside.
For monsters were real to my little me inside.
No where safe, unless I was hiding.
Hiding not only from people but even myself.
camouflaging me, from me.
that the Monsters that found me at night be vanquished by day
Or so I thought
So i pretended
Thing is, vanquished need be day and night, else it isn’t vanquished at all
Monsters
So many in such a vast array of sizes and shapes
old ones from my childhood abuse tat spawned new ones in my adulthood
monsters that were
to become monsters that are.
such was my existence
Such isn’t any more
Monsters that were real, are no more
Oh, they make noise now and again, trying to find me, for such is the nature of all monsters
Yet noise is all it is, nothing more unless I choose to allow it to be
For what I have learned is that these monsters are only as big as I see them to be
They are so far in the my past, it is the shadow of them that causes them to seem so big
Shadows from what was that have no chance is the sun of what is
They are hungry for me
but I am no longer theirs, i am not for sale or taking, or throwing away
i am not going to cower any longer,
no!
i turn my back on them, i stand sure with my Jesus
I shout to them that they can raise their heads all they want, it is good that they do, for it reminds me of all i have been redeemed from
i will thank them for reminding me, i will scare them away with my praises to God
for these monsters are no monsters at all
never ever more real than my Jesus.
“No matter how much darkness you see in the world around you, My Light continues to shine on, for it is infinitely more powerful! Because you are My child, this Light shines not only upon you but also within you.” -Jesus Today by Sarah Young, p. 262 
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